Diagnosis: Internal Bleeding of the Heart

Painful emotions, like roots that run deep inside
Scars of past wounds have found a place to hide
It was said that I could come here to heal
A place to lay my burdens down, I was told
Come to find out- that wasn't the real deal
Now the wounds are even deeper than before
And I have more unwanted baggage to hold

Lord, how can I grow inside of you
if I can't seem to heal inside of me?
I’ve tried to tell the “ad-ministering doctors”
where it hurts me today
But they just tell me to stop crying,
grow up, walk in the spirit, and be a man
It's not real pain that you're feeling
Just use your faith, and think spiritually

Now I didn't think that this was the wrong place
And I didn't expect it to be a familiar face
To haul off and kick a brother while he was down
Just because I've yet to reach the place in God
where they are now

It has taken me many years
to get to the place to even trust enough
To let someone up close to my heart
To look at all the scars and stuff
But as for now,
I guess I'll just continue to look around
For a remedy to cure the growing symptoms
of the pain that my soul has found

John L. Donelson
Prodigal Son Productions
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